Now, I know I said that this blog wasn't for poetry, but bear with me, this is where I feel this story really begins.
I Want A Blessing
8:51 AM 10/18/2010
I really want a blessing, whatever You may choose.
I'm ready for a blessing, even if I have to loose.
I really want a blessing, whatever it may be.
I'm ready to grow, please put Your hand on me.
I really want a blessing, whatever I must do.
I want to be better; help me grow in You.
I really want a blessing, whatever it will take.
I want to learn about You, and never to be fake.
I really want a blessing, whatever be the cost.
I want to be like You, and give love to lost.
I'm not asking for pain or hardship, but still I want to grow.
Whatever it takes to get there, You'll give me grace to go.
I was fifteen, and this was my prayer to God. My dad had recently said in one of his sermons that God has blessing for us, but often we don't ask Him for them. Not long after I prayed this prayer, my dad brought up the subject of me perhaps working at a camp for the summer.
Let me tell you, ha, I was scared of the thought of leaving my family for the summer and going to a completely unfamiliar place. I'd never been away from my family for any longer than a week, and the times I had been away it was always with people I knew well. Besides me being nervous though, there wasn't much reason not to apply, so I filled out the paper work... for awhile, mentally, I didn't consider it actually happening. Imagine my surprise when I was asked to come work for the summer...
By the time I left, I was sixteen and was assigned to work in the kitchen. I learned so much in that first summer at Grace Adventures. (Enough to probably write several blog posts on.) Many times I was forced from my comfort zone and had to step up and do things that I found hard. Those I worked with supported and encouraged me to let others see the real me... to have fun and laugh and, while doing my best, not always take everything I did so seriously. ;)
I went back again in 2012 and grew in other ways... patience was a big one... accepting that things weren't always going to work out the way I wanted them to was another. The ministry of Grace Adventures blessed my life so much... and it all started with the little innocent prayer of, "God, I want a blessing."
Understand this - if you honestly tell God that you want to do things for Him, you'll be amazed at the doors He opens. Be careful what you pray for.
In February of this year, as I began to try and figure out what I was going to do for the summer, I asked God for a blessing. I told Him I wanted a way to serve Him and be challenged, and if He'd open doors I would go through them - whether that meant a third summer at camp, or something totally new. A few days later my dad brought home an application to the Board Walk Chapel in New Jersey. (How does my dad end up doing these things - I don't know. o.O)
Again, like the first time I got an answer to this kind of prayer, I was scared. 'God? You want me to try this?' I already knew the answer; I had prayed and He had responded. There was somewhere between a mix of awe of Him and doubts in myself as I said yes...
In March I found out my application was accepted, and began raising support and planning for the trip. That was when I had to stop mentally thinking of it as a 'maybe' kind of thing, and throw myself into the fact that this was coming up and would be here fairly soon.
Perhaps you're a little bit curious about what I'll actually be doing. Here are the goals of the chapel:
It is the goal of this work to glorify God by proclaiming the Gospel so that people are brought to Christ and added to the church. Specific goals for this year:
- To train 25 people in the work of evangelism
- To distribute 10,000 tracts
- To distribute Bibles and Christian books
- To present the Gospel through personal contact to a least 2,000 people
- To have our home missionaries follow-up meaningful contacts
Tomorrow, I'll be getting on a plane and be off to start this new adventure. I'm still a little bit apprehensive, but I know God is going to do good things through this. I asked Him for a blessing - I can't wait to see the ways He challenges, grows, and teaches me over the next 12 weeks.
~Ophelia - Marie
(I will be posting on my blog while I'm away since I've stock piled several posts. :) )